Today I looked outside and for a moment I was simply amazed at how beautiful today really was. Sure Atticus woke up half a dozen times last night and then woke up and was grinding his teeth in my ear this morning. Sure Nate kept coming to ask me the same question he knows the answer to while I was working. However, no matter how many times I tell Nate that he came play with his Skylanders in his room or tell Atti his teeth will fall out from all the grinding they are my beautiful children that I was blessed with. This is the beautiful day that I am blessed to live in. Sometimes bad things happen, we get angry, hurt, or the day just sucks, it is still our today and tomorrow will still be a new day, unlike Groundhog Day we are not cursed to relive the same day repeatedly. So I will live just for today.
I have always felt lucky to have the ability to leave the past behind me where it belongs. I can easily forget things that were bad and never recollect those memories again. Sometimes I have wished for Dumbledore's Pensive so that I could remove excess thoughts from my mind but then I remember I already have the ability to rid myself of them and do not wish for the ability to reevaluate them. I cannot live in the past it is already gone and no longer belongs to me so I will just live for today.
I have so much ambition and so many things I want to do that I cannot even decide. Many people come to two paths in life and they make a choice on which to take for far too many times I have stood at that fork and wondered what would be the best in 10, 20, or even 30 years. Too many times I have made the wrong choice based on others thoughts. I have all these college credits (and student loans) that are completely useless because of it. Now is the time when I make choices for myself and for my family without letting others cause me to doubt them. So I will live just for today.
